an apologetic update

I have receieved a few phone calls as of late to inquire as to whether or not I am okay. Apparently my posts are a bit ambiguous, and have left much room for interpretation, and interpreters are not hopeful. I am fine. Some might even say I am good. :)

Things are strange here at school. For one, those of us in our thrid year here are finding it difficult to focus on school at all. No one seems to care, everyone' s mind is elsewhere. It is tough to care, even though I do. At least, I think I do. For those of us who spent summers abroad, we dream of returning to those far off places of adventure and awkwardness. I miss the awkwardness of being travel- of being different and strange. I miss the comfort of it as well-- I miss my home at Oxford-- that small room high above the city street, window open to a gray drizzle.

Spiritually things are changing. My faith is taking a new form. God has me refocused on His Greatness and His Law- two things that had taken a backseat to His Goodness and Grace. I must learn to see Him as both good and great. I am also taking a character inventory- with some parts falling away, and new ones forming. I know who I want to be, and I can only get there through Him. I also struggle with Him to know what is to come- what He wants of me. I am also learning that the heart is deceitful, and that I have too often relied on such a fallible organ.

Wow- so this post is seemingly as ambiguous as the many before it. I promise that I am okay- so please stop worrying. I have amazing friends and sisters and an incredible family. I have seen much of all of them and this time has been awesome. I am taking more time to myself, not nearly enough, but more. I am pursuing a few creative outlets- as I strive to one day sell my own creations on the Drag, and maybe even in another country to support my ministries. ;-) I am in a strange place- but a good one. I promise.

Please continue to pray for Bart and for his team in Spain. Caleb and Lindsey had to come back to the US, but Bart, Stephanie, and Shanna are still there. Pray for wisdom, strength, and sprirtual maturity for the team. Pray for safe travels and health for their leaders. For the latest update, visit Bart's blog (which has links to blogs for the rest of the team) at www.bartemeo-negro.blogspot.com