all you get is me

I'm okay. Thanks for all of your kind words of encouragement, and especially for all of the prayers. I am okay. I promise. Or I will be. I guess... I'm on the path to okay-ness. Something like that.

I had a lot going on in my head and in my life before last week's events unfolded, and now I feel like I can no longer deny them they're place in the forefront of my mind, i.e. I must now deal with them. That's a good thing. I need to keep telling myself that.

I have some amazing friends, and I don't love on them enough. Bart-- thanks for listening... and listening... and listening. You deserve a medal. But all you get is me... sucker... And hold me to what I said. I need accountability. To Nicole and Julie-- thank you for hugs and for living with me. I know I'm not fun right now and I know I seem like I'm up in my head a lot. I am. But thank for hanging out with me even in those times. (And thanks for the work-out today. I feel great tonight-- but I'll hate you tomorrow...)

I lie a lot. Mostly to myself. I'm gullible-- especially when I'm the one lying. I had two very honest conversations today, and one naked one last night. They were difficult, but necessary.

This post is strange, but I felt like I needed to update and explain-- especially since people are apparently reading again-- and welcome back :) They'll get better as I do. But for now, all you get is me... suckers....